I saw you today……….
……You were dressed head-to-toe cyclist, heading out to the
path, but you doubled-back just to stroke my hair, as I pretended to sleep.
I saw you today………
……You walked towards me with that first brewed cup, but it’s
your dimples that woke me, so I sipped just to be with you - and welcome the
day.
I saw you today…….
…..You held my hand through the pain, as I struggled and
wept, finally making it to that miraculous moment – to welcome each of our sons
to the world we called home.
I saw you today…….
……You laughed at my silliness as I laughed back at yours –
our secret language and humor – could others ever understand?
I saw you today…….
…….You kissed my hand as I left – something I cherished so
much. I wish I had told you how happy
that made me. Maybe you knew?
I saw you today…….
.
……..You handed me M&Ms that you picked up on the way
home - just because. You picked up extras, as I would find out, hidden in
cabinets and drawers, just waiting for me to find them - when I needed them
most.
I saw you today……..
……..You were a man, brother, son, friend, father, husband. In each light, I saw you.
……..In my dreams, in my memory, in my heart.
I saw you today.
You were there.
For Patrick
Love you so much Jiji~ Such a dear heart you have!!Thinking of you and hoping the memories, although painful, are soothing to your broken heart. xoxox
ReplyDeleteJiji - You are amazing. The journey you've had over the last year is something I'd never wish on anyone, and yet you've grown and learned from it, rather than wilted and succumbed to your grief. Your loss breaks my heart, and your strength builds me up and makes me stronger, just through watching you through your journey. I love you!
ReplyDeleteI went to USM with Patrick. He was always so funny and a very intelligent. Everyone loved him. I had a dream about him a few weeks ago. My dorm was next to his. The next evening after the dream, I looked up Patrick and was shocked that a year ago, God had taken him to heaven. I'm not surprised Patrick married a lovely lady and was a good father and man. It was there inside him when we were college students. That positive energy. May God be with you and your sons. May he ease your pain.
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